I am beautiful.
I will never have giant tits…unless they are fake,
I might always have a mom belly,
I have stretch marks,
My skin is no longer “beautiful”, because of my autoimmune disease
My curves are itty bitty.
BUT I see myself as sexy.
I am not filtered or censored,
What you see is what you get.
I will never look like a model or the girls on only fans, tv, or in magazines,
BUT I am beautiful.
You see what you get.
I am a mom.
My stretch marks reflect nine months of three different times growing a child within me,
I am blessed.
But I am not what men drool over on social media
I am me.
Down to earth.
I am a woman who loves herself,
I wear what I want,
I do not care what others think,
I will stand up for myself,
My mouth is foul.
I am not perfect.
I can pay my own way.
I love life.
I see the light in the darkness.
I am loved.
I am beautiful from the inside out.
I use no filters to shine bright or show my beauty.
My skin is not perfect.
I am not a model.
BUT I am beautiful.
I am a mother.
I shine bright and light my little world by being just me.
I make no apologies for who I am.
I may not have large curves or be sexy like those who are airbrushed, but I am real.
I work hard for the body I have.
I love me,
that is all that matters.
I AM BEAUTIFUL.
There are times when we judge ourselves, because of what we see on TV, social media, or in person. But this is life. This is how we have lived for a long time. First it was Barbie’s body, then it was the models we saw in the magazines. We continue to grow up and still compare ourselves, even though we know we shouldn’t and know that we are beautiful in our ways. Our parents, family, and friends can tell us time and time again that we are gorgeous and beautiful, and we can tell ourselves, but if we aren’t strong enough to believe it, we will always compare ourselves. If we are strong enough will we believe it? Maybe on certain days, but we are human and we have our faults and bad days. Those bad days no matter how much we tell ourselves we are beautiful or strong we will not feel it. It is just part of life.
I love who I am. I love my personality, my smile, my humor, just everything about me. Do I have faults? fuck yes. But we all do. I am a firm believer that your personality makes you radiate from the inside out. We can be drop dead gorgeous, but if we are ugly on the inside, we shine ugly on the outside.
Are there things I hate about myself? Of course. I hate what my autoimmune disease has done to my body. It has changed my self confidence tremendously. This is something I have realized a lot lately. I hate that about myself. My bestie told me I have the biggest balls she has ever seen…lmao. But lately I feel I have lost that about myself. I feel weak. It is difficult for me to admit that, because I have come such a long way the last several years. The way my disease has changed my body has affected me more that I realized.
There are things I am still working on. I have said them in previous posts. My walls. They are definitely getting smaller which I am so proud of, you have no idea. And my moat…well the prey has left and now you can relax on a float while working on your tan. So, I am strong in parts of my little world and weak in others. Now if I could just be strong in all of my little world, I would be unstoppable.
I am beautiful. I am fucking beautiful. I love me. I am blessed. I have been through hell and back. I am lucky to be alive right now. I almost died. I am a survivor. I may hate parts of my body, but I am beautiful. I shine bright. I see past the darkness. I do not make apologies for who I am. I might be weak in areas of my life and strong in others, but I am working on myself always for the better, because I want to continue to a beautiful mother, woman, and role model.
We may always compare ourselves to those we see on TV, in magazines, or on social media, unfortunately that’s life. It’s how we grew up. WE are all beautiful in our own unique ways. Just because we don’t see ourselves as a goddess in our own eyes doesn’t mean someone else doesn’t. Love yourself always. You are BEAUTIFUL.
Sunshine and sparkles.